Iesus Non Amat Me

Hey, everyone! Time for my New Year's memes. My answers this year are more upbeat than I can ever remember them being previously, which has to be a good thing!

( Meme One: The Questions )

( Meme Two: The Sentences )

I have returned from BiCon!

It was quite weird going back to the real world and I am rather worn out. Apologises to people I did not say a proper goodbye to but hopefully I'll see you next year anyway so we can say (hello and) goodbye then!

I shall be writing up a more detailed post soon, assuming I have the energy to do so, but for now I shall just say that I had a really good time and I'm very glad I went. :)

Ok, I have tried many times over the past few days to actually write an entry about Edinburgh but I keep failing. I have been seriously lacking in energy and concentration recently. I've not been sleeping well and just seem to spend my days in a haze of tiredness where the simplest task requires far more effort than I can manage.

I really hope this sorts itself out before BiCon as I would like to actually be sociable and, you know, do things while I'm there.

But first, the Edinburgh Report:

I had a good time in Edinburgh, despite a few dips in mood where I became sullen and irrationally irritable. I'm sure I did not make for a good travelling companion but fortunately Paul did not drop me off the side of the castle at any point, tempting though I'm sure it must have been.

Speaking of the castle:

( Isn't it Pretty? )

The castle could also be seen from the back room of The Elephant House, the cafe where JK Rowling wrote much of Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone:

( I Can See How This Would be Inspiring )

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And, of course, one of the main things that Scotland is famous for:

( Scotch! )

This is just part of one guy's massive collection of over 3400 bottles of Scotch. Unfortunately I feel The Scotch Whisky Experience would have frowned on us trying to drink them. But I did get my own taster tray of whiskies from the four main regions:

( My Scotch! )

I didn't think to take a picture before I'd tried some, but you get the idea. I came to the conclusion that I am not a whisky connoisseur because all I really noticed about the four was that I liked the first three while the Islay was, as had been previously suggested, like drinking a bonfire. Not bad, but not something I'd choose.

All in all it was a very good trip. I think I'd like to go again at a time when the Fringe festival isn't starting and the streets are not completely jammed with people. I think autumn would be nice.

Speaking of autumn, I'm beginning to wonder if there's something wrong with me. As I mentioned in my previous entry I love the season and am really looking forward to it, but lately I've been feeling almost desperate for it to arrive. It's ridiculous that I'm wishing summer away but I can't seem to help it!

I have registered for BiCon! Yay! And I have arranged to meet up with people at the station before going in, so that should make things a lot less stressful. :)

I went to Pride in London yesterday.

I'm actually very proud of myself for going, and not in the obvious way. I very nearly gave into my usual anxiety and worries and stayed at home yet again. I didn't have anyone to go with and although I had found the details of the bi group online, I still didn't know if I'd have the courage to actually go up and ask to join them.

But I did, because if you don't ask you'll never know and I'm tired of missing out on so much due to social anxiety. So I got to join their group. It soon became clear, however, that they all already knew each other very well and I felt like a bit of an unwelcome intruder! But I got a sparkly purple hat to wear and a purple umbrella to hold and not knowing anyone around you doesn't matter too much when you're walking through the streets of London with thousands of people cheering at the sides!

And that's another thing - if you had told shy, self-conscious me of old that I would ever do something like that I would have laughed in your face.

Once the march had finished the group headed to the pub for a drink. Once again everyone started talking to the people they already knew and I nearly made my exit at this point, resigned to being the weirdo who invaded their group then disappeared with no word like a shadow in the night, but I'm really glad I didn't because through the magic of waiting forever to be served I met some really lovely people. We sat outside, chatted, then went to look at the stalls in Leicester Square and collect stickers!

Unfortunately I had to leave quite early due to transportation issues and getting back in time for a family barbecue but I hope to see people again soon at BiCon.

Yes, apparently I have to go to BiCon. Pretty much every time I met someone new that was one of the first thing they said to me. The other thing lots of them said was that they thought they already knew me from somewhere. Clearly my evil twin has been busy.