It's Back!

Apr. 15th, 2017 03:52 pm
crystalcazzie: (Sara Smile)
Prison Break is back and so are my recaps! I'd forgotten how much fun I had writing these. I know America is a week ahead of us, so I haven't been to any sites that talk about the new series or read any theories. I'm sure I could find somewhere to watch it online, but I'm also sure that we're going to get to a dramatic cliffhanger at some point and I'm trying to wait until then so I can see the next episode without having to wait ages!

But now, for the first time in nearly eight years, I present to you my latest Prison Break recap:

Episode 5.01 Ogygia

Seven Years Later )
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
I see LJ is once again upsetting people and causing another mass exodus to DreamWidth. I've always been reluctant to move because (a) I'm set in my ways, and (b) I forked out money for a permanent account and I don't really want to lose the benefits I get from that. But I've finally given in and signed up for a DW account so I at least have a backup and somewhere to go if it does turn out to be necessary. I'm in the process of importing this journal over to there, but so is everyone else it seems and the queue is pretty long.

In other news, we took Tilly to the vet for her annual check-up and booster jabs and it turns out she has an infection under one of her teeth. We're going to have to take her back next week to have that tooth and possibly the one next to it extracted. It's going to cost quite a bit, but I'm more worried about having to leave her there. She's always been a nervous dog and not comfortable with strangers. I know it needs to be done because toothache is horrible and I don't want her to be in pain, but I also know I'm going to spend the next week and a half worrying about it.
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Seven years ago I made my Ships of the Noughties list. Recently it was suggested to me by [livejournal.com profile] dustinw5220 that I make a similar list for the nineties. I decided to expand on that a bit to include a whole century rather than just a decade because why not? As usual I found it difficult to decide which ships to include, so before we reach the main event I would like to take this opportunity to acknowledge some of my favourite couples who didn't quite make the cut:

Honourable Mentions )

I've also decided not to double up, so Mulder/Scully, Xena/Gabrielle, Tom/B'Elanna, Harm/Mac, Willow/Tara, Piper/Leo, John/Aeryn, and Charlie/Zoey are not featured in this list because I already included them in my Ships of the Noughties.

And now, without further ado, I present to you...


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Twentieth Century Ships )

There you go. I hope you enjoyed my Twentieth Century Ships and please feel free to leave a comment letting me know what you think!

Card

Mar. 20th, 2017 06:26 pm
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
As I said in my previous entry, yesterday was the one year anniversary of Dad's death, and today we got a card from the Patient & Family Support Team at the hospice saying that they're still there for us as long as we need them. I doubt we will but it's really nice to know that the option is there.

Also today Mum and I went to give blood and everything went smoothly this time. Although, Tilly wasn't very happy about us going. I think she thought we were taking her on a walk cos she ran to the front door and seemed so excited. It was actually rather difficult getting her back in the living room so we could leave and I felt so guilty!

One Year

Mar. 19th, 2017 07:49 pm
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
I am still working on my Twentieth Century Ships list and I'm hoping it will be up soon. I haven't made any more progress on it over the weekend though cos yesterday Mum and I dismantled our old dining room table and made up the new one we'd bought from the internet. It's a rather huge farmhouse style thing that takes over most of the room! I'm really liking the size though, cos it's lovely to have so much space. The old table was rather slim and I often felt cramped using it. This one is a good size for jigsaw building!

My brother came up to visit us this weekend too. I think it was because today is the one year anniversary of Dad's death. It was nice to have all three of us together. We didn't do anything special to mark the date, but we were all aware of what it was.
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
It was eight years ago today that we brought Tilly home from the rescue centre, so I made biscuit bones to celebrate! =D

crystalcazzie: (Willow Ravenclaw)
I have decided to take up coin collecting. For years I've been throwing interesting coins in a pot, but with the imminent demise of the round £1 coin I realised I wanted a way to keep track of what I've got. So I went online and, after struggling a lot more than I thought I would to find what I wanted, bought a coin album. It has spaces for all the UK decimal coins from 1971 to 2017, with handy pictures so I can see what I'm missing.

I'm a bit disappointed that it doesn't have pages for coins of Crown Dependencies or British Overseas Territories though, so I have nowhere to put the neat looking coins I have from Gibraltar, Guernsey, Jersey and the Isle of Man. But it is a ring binder, so I can always try and make my own pages for them and put them in myself.

This weekend I'm going to go through the money I have in my house to see what coins I can find and how much of the album I can fill. I'm hoping to be able to collect all the current £1 coins before they go out of circulation in October, but I know that's a bit ambitious. I may have to start using cash to pay for things more often.

Also this weekend I'm planning to make banana bread and possibly start writing a list of my ships because it has been suggested that, following my Ships of the Noughties list, I make similar lists for the 90s or this decade. Rather than just limit it to the 90s I've been thinking that I could do a Ships of the Twentieth Century list. And technically I suppose I should leave this decade for another three years cos it's not over yet and who knows what new and wonderful ships might come along, but I'll probably do one anyway!

Also, Buffy icon cos it's 20 years since Buffy first aired in America and wow I feel old!
crystalcazzie: (Moulin Rouge Done Sex)
Secret Cinema was a mixture of good and bad. I wanted to like it a lot more than I did. I wanted to throw myself into it and enjoy it all without worrying and feeling self-conscious but, unfortunately, that's a lot easier said than done. I think my main problem was with the uncertainty of it all. During the first part of the evening there was no indication of what we were supposed to do and I hated that. I always like to know exactly what's expected of me and what I'm meant to be doing, but here I spent the whole time on edge worrying that I was going to get it wrong.

Then we moved into a room with loud music and a crowded dance floor, which has never been my idea of fun, so that did nothing to help my mood.

As we took our seats for the actual film I was feeling stressed, anxious, and hugely disappointed by this thing that I'd been so excited for for so long. And then it got a million times better. Moulin Rouge is one of my favourite films so I was determined to enjoy it anyway, but seeing the people acting it out on the stage in front of the screen was brilliant. And everyone sang along really loudly, which is exactly what I wanted because I love singing along but I didn't want to risk anyone hearing me. I also managed not to cry at the ending. Partly by imagining that this was all a clever ruse for Christian and Satine to escape and make new lives together, and partly by thinking about my icon.

So I left the experience feeling conflicted. I really wish I'd been able to enjoy the whole thing, because it was a spectacular set up and the costumes were amazing. I also worried far too much beforehand about making sure my costume was right. I could have worn almost anything as long as it was vaguely Moulin Rouge-esque and would have been fine. I kinda wish I had just worn a corset and Victorian skirt. I'd probably have felt more comfortable (emotionally, if not physically!)
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
I'm heading off to London in a couple of hours to go to the pub quiz this evening and then tomorrow Paul and I are going to the Secret Cinema Moulin Rouge event. I'm really looking forward to it but I'm also really nervous cos I didn't realise quite how much audience participation was involved! Still, I'm hoping that it'll be fun and I'm going to try my best to throw myself into it and not hide away. The character I've been assigned is a rather horrible snob, so we'll see if it's true that playing baddies is more fun!

I also got my hair cut and I mentioned that I would be going to a Moulin Rouge themed party so she styled it for me. It looks so good but I fear it won't last until tomorrow evening:

Hair )

Also, that photo is completely unedited. I just managed to catch the light in such a way to wash out all of my imperfections.
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
And now, the dress report:

Ones I Liked )

Ones I'm Not Sure About )

Ones I Didn't Like )

And finally, my Not a Dress this year has to go to...

Not a Dress )
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I opted for sleep last night, so welcome to my not-quite-liveblog of the Oscars as I watch my recording. I've been very good about not looking at my phone or listening to the radio or going anywhere that could spoil me, so I'm watching as though it's being shown for the very first time:

This is gonna be long... )

Final Results:

Caroline: 7/10
Emma: 5/10
Random Number Generator: 2/10
Paul: 1/10

Woot! I'm the Oscars champion!
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
For the past five months I often found myself thinking "I should post about this on Livejournal" but then I never got round to it and it got to the point where I felt like I couldn't just come back and start posting without talking about how long I'd been away so I just never came back. So now I'm making myself come back cos I want to be able to just pop on here and post about whatever, especially now that I find myself drifting away from Tumblr more and more.

The Oscars are tonight and I'm pretty sure I'm going to record the ceremony and watch it tomorrow. Part of me wants to stay up and liveblog cos I have fond memories of doing that in the past, but I fear I am getting to the age where staying up until 5am just isn't an option. I am slightly tempted to try and not-quite-liveblog it as I watch tomorrow (cos let's face it, no one is going to be reading my posts as they go up and it's really just for my own amusement that I do them) but I'm not sure I can resist the temptation to just have a quick look at other online things and thereby risk spoiling myself about who wins.

Emma has now joined our predictions game, so there's three of us competing this year. But we have pared the categories back to just the main ones. That's probably sensible cos in the past a lot of the awards have been complete guesses cos I have no idea about them (I did look up the difference between sound mixing and sound editing once, but I still don't really understand it and even if I did I still have no idea which film should win!)

As usual I have seen very few of the films nominated this year. And by "few" I mean "two": Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (nominated for production design and costume design) and Hidden Figures (nominated for actual, proper awards!) It's incredibly unusual for me to have seen a Best Picture-nominated film before the ceremony so I'm quite proud of this feat! And while Hidden Figures was a fantastic film, I still think La La Land will win.
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
Over two months since my last entry. So much to catch up with. (Not really, mostly just continuing to sort out Dad's estate but also a holiday and a haircut...)

Estate Matters )

Up North )

Hair )
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
Remember how a while ago I mentioned one of the banks I wrote to about Probate said that they had no records of any accounts in Dad's name so I had to write back to them with a copy of a letter which stated quite clearly that he did have an account with them?

Well now, nearly three weeks after my second letter, I have a reply from the same guy as before in which he refers to my that second letter as "advising" them of Dad's death, and explains that they need to see the death certificate in order to register it.

At first I was tempted to send a long, annoyed reply detailing our correspondence so far, but I think I'll just send the certificate with a covering letter and hope that they'll get it right this time.

I am annoyed though. Firstly because he told me there was no account when there was, presumably because he didn't bother to check properly, and secondly cos he didn't really address anything I said in my second letter. In fact I'm not sure he even read it, just saw that it was about a dead person and sent the form letter asking for a death certificate. He could have at least acknowledged that I'd already written to him and sent a certificate, but that he needs me to send it again cos he didn't bother to make a copy of it the first time.

~*~

I tried to donate blood last month but couldn't cos my haemoglobin levels were too low again. This time they were low enough that they told me to see my GP and have taken me off the blood donor register for 12 months. I think that's a bit of an overreaction cos I looked it up and my levels only put me at 'slightly anaemic'.

Still, I went to the doctor and he said it could well just be due to me giving blood regularly, but he wants to do a blood test to check and see if there are any other issues that could be causing it.

It probably is just due to giving blood and I'm so annoyed with myself for it. I had had an appointment to donate later this month, but because I'll be away then I changed it and I thought it would be better to bring it forward rather than waiting another month. And if I'd just been patient and waited a bit longer I would probably have been fine and wouldn't now have to wait a year before being able to go again.

~*~

Although I don't really care about sport in any way, I have had the England v Wales match on in the background as I've been writing this and it went into stoppage time with both teams tied 1-1. I turned to Tilly and said "You need to score another goal". She huffed, laid down, and a couple of seconds later England scored. I had assumed she'd go for Wales, being from there herself, but maybe she's been living in England so long she considers herself an English dog now. Either way, very impressive Tilly!
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
In my previous entry I talked about my feelings regarding three upcoming season finales. Now I have actually seen those finales I have some further thoughts:

Castle )

OUAT )

NCIS )
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
Time to talk about TV:

Castle )

Once Upon a Time )

NCIS )
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
Once again I've been away from LJ for a while, mostly because I've been busy with Probate stuff and tidying the house and when I do go online I want something mindless like reblogging stuff on Tumblr or reading endless Buzzfeed posts. But I also need somewhere to write and get my thoughts down properly, so here we go:

Probate stuff is coming along. Rob and I are joint executors of Dad's estate and we're contacting various banks and organisations to get all the information together in order to apply for Probate. It's mostly going all right, although I did get a letter back from someone saying that they'd checked their records and had found no accounts under that name and I'm just like "Oh really? Then why do I have this letter from your very department, dated February this year, addressed to my dad and talking about his account?" Ugh.

The tidying the house thing is a bit weird too. I think it must be a reaction to the grief because I've always been a pretty messy person and a bit of a hoarder. (I'm the kind of person who watches the show Hoarders in order to feel better about myself because at least I'm not that bad!) But now I'm in CLEAN ALL THE THINGS mode, as well as THROW AWAY ALL THE THINGS YOU KEPT BECAUSE YOU TOLD YOURSELF THEY'D BE USEFUL IN THE FUTURE BUT IT'S TIME TO ADMIT THEY WON'T BE AND JUST GET RID OF THEM mode. I quite like it actually and hope that I can keep it up because it would be great to have a house where things are actually tidy and I can get to what I want easily.

So mostly I feel like things are going ok and I'm not doing too badly. Or at least I did until earlier today when I had a bit of a breakdown at work and now I feel stupid and embarrassed about it.

One of my managers was having a go at me for not fully explaining the feedback cards when I hand them out and I got upset and argued back, which then made him get even more annoyed and started threatening me with a disciplinary and whatever. I wish I could have remained rational, because I do have actual reasons why I think he was being unfair, but it just upset me so much because the managers were going on about these stupid feedback cards back in March when Dad was dying and bringing them up again felt like bringing everything about that time up again. Maybe that's silly and probably doesn't make sense to a lot of people, but it's how I feel and I genuinely was really, seriously upset.

But I do also think it was unfair, because back in March my main manager specifically said I just had to hand out the cards. That was it. He didn't say start with just handing out the cards for now. He said just hand out the cards, that's all that's required. And so, I took him at his word and believed that that was all that was required. But now apparently that's not enough. I really hate moving goalposts. You can't tell me I have to do x and then get mad at me for not doing x and y. And if you are going to change the rules, you have to then explain that to me. Not aggressively moan at me for not doing something that I had been told wasn't required.

So yeah, I don't think he was being fair but I know that by reacting the way I did I've lost a lot of credibility and that really annoys me. (But, tbh, I also feel like it's not unreasonable for me to expect a bit of leeway? He went on about how this is the same for everyone and I kinda feel like I shouldn't be held to the same expectations as everyone else right now. Is that wrong? I mean it's been less than two months since Dad died and I kinda feel like the message here is that I should be over it already.)

I'm not looking forward to going in tomorrow but I'm going to try and smooth things over. My initial urge was just to quit and find something else, but I know this is the wrong time to be making decisions like that. And I have no confidence in myself and my ability to find a new job anyway.

31 Days

Apr. 19th, 2016 07:57 pm
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
It's been exactly a month since Dad died and I know that's a pretty arbitrary milestone, but it still weighed quite heavily on me today. Things weren't helped by the fact that one of my colleagues had set up a static bike ride today to raise money for Macmillan. It's not that I object to the concept of raising money for a cancer charity, of course, but seeing the word 'cancer' all around the place felt like the universe was conspiring to rub my face in it all day.

Then this afternoon I set up the new Sky box that Mum had ordered to replace our one that had been getting rather flaky lately. It didn't have the same RF ports on the back that the old one had, which was a problem cos we'd used them in order to get signal to all the other TVs in the house (not just Sky, the normal digital signal was routed through it as well, so it was pretty important!) I managed to work out what I needed to do to sort it out and felt very proud of myself. But I also almost burst into tears because I kept thinking that Dad would know what to do, if only I could ask him, and it was just another reminder that I'll never be able to ask him anything ever again.
crystalcazzie: (DW River hair)
Dad died on the 19th. He made it almost two months longer than the doctor thought he would. And he was at home the whole time, which is what he wanted. I suppose I should be grateful for that but I mostly just want to scream at the universe for how cruel and unfair it is.

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